umm well im ray i havent been playing for more than four or five years now, i like to sing for fun and sometimes, people who feel inclined to do so, tell me im good. its a nice feeling. im not entirely comfortable with playing in front of people, so people get the impression that i dont wish, more than anything, that someone would just have to see my guitar and they would ask me to play something. and nobody would make fun of you for it - nobody would even think of it. who would? ....well, we would. yeah. you would. nobody would be irritated or uncomfortable or awkward. thats where i want to live - where people dont get so uncomfortable that you can feel it and it makes you want to puke. where people dont feel awkward. its not in their vocabulary. where people just talk to you and dont even fucking care what you have to say because you both know that nobody fuckin cares what you have to say. and people would know when to listen to you and swallow their dumb pride and just listen to you because youve got something important to say. and who cares if its important to them or not? its important to you, so they would consider it. people say they do that here - but i dont really see it. and if its going on behind my back, its gonig on behind a lot of peoples backs, and thats completely unfair. like leaving a fox to some hounds and not showing him the way out or something deep like that. shit, man.